I am leaving soon and I've yet to packed up everything. I am probably only 1/3 packed and ready. Even my heart and my mind.
It's not the same as going for holiday for a month and coming back. Right where things are at the moment, yeah sure, I'll be back in a few months. That's the current plan.
But at the thought of a permanent move, I thought I would be ready. Excited. Jumping for joy. However, leaving somethings behind. Leaving friends behind. Either it's normal to have such mixed feelings or I am having cold feet.
It's not that I am going over to marry or have no life. Of course, I am excited to see him. To be with him again. Don't get me wrong. But I only have an aunt, 2 cousins and him. That's it. I don't have any friends there. So, it's going to be a big move. A big sacrifice on my part.
Especially for the past 4 years of LDR, I've been on my own. Going about on my own. Hanging out with my friends and whatnot. Having a life.
It's not the same as going for holiday for a month and coming back. Right where things are at the moment, yeah sure, I'll be back in a few months. That's the current plan.
But at the thought of a permanent move, I thought I would be ready. Excited. Jumping for joy. However, leaving somethings behind. Leaving friends behind. Either it's normal to have such mixed feelings or I am having cold feet.
It's not that I am going over to marry or have no life. Of course, I am excited to see him. To be with him again. Don't get me wrong. But I only have an aunt, 2 cousins and him. That's it. I don't have any friends there. So, it's going to be a big move. A big sacrifice on my part.
Especially for the past 4 years of LDR, I've been on my own. Going about on my own. Hanging out with my friends and whatnot. Having a life.
Where to start first?
Boxes and junk.
My precious books all packed up... the only thing that is packed.
More miscellaneous memorabilia.
Stationeries... wrapping papers & ribbons... papers... magazines.
Things that I will be bringing minus the DVDs.
Things that needs to go into storage box.
More junk under the table with bills, house matters to sort.
But you know what, I think it's for the best. It's time to close this chapter of my life and start a new one. Shucks. Now til Wednesday to pack and I'll be out the whole day and night tomorrow, Tuesday and Wednesday night.
When am I going to find time to pack up everything? -_-'
When am I going to find time to pack up everything? -_-'
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