This past one year, I have been thinking A LOT. Thinking about my future. Thinking of who I am. Sometimes getting anxious at the constant turmoil I feel within myself and yet can't seem to get out of. Besides that, I hate the endless, constant feeling of uncertainty.
Just the other day, I plurked that I was going through quarter life crisis. And you know what?? I realised that I didn't know what it exactly meant. Hence, I do what I always do when I am not sure of something, I googled "quarter life crisis".
And this is what Wikipedia gave me...
Characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:
* realizing that the pursuits of one's peers are useless
* confronting their own mortality
* watching time slowly take its toll on their parents, only to realize they are next
* insecurity regarding the fact that their actions are meaningless
* insecurity concerning ability to love themselves, let alone another person
* insecurity regarding present accomplishments
* re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships
* lack of friendships or romantic relationships, sexual frustration, and involuntary celibacy
* disappointment with one's job
* nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life
* tendency to hold stronger opinions
* boredom with social interactions
* loss of closeness to high school and college friends
* financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.)
* loneliness, depression and suicidal tendencies
* desire to have children
* a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you
* frustration with social skills
And after evaluating the above... Shoots!!! I suffer from the above characteristics! All 100% of the above!! But upon further reflection, I think most people would probably be going through at least 60-80% of the above and does that make them all suffer from quarter life crisis??!! How dysfunctional we are these days then.
Friends and family see my uploaded pictures in FB of my days in Brissie and naturally assume that I am having a ball of my life over here. I guess I can't blame them for having such assumption. I do look "happier" and am going places or so it seems.
I post 100 over pictures of one day in my life and it looks like fun while everyone else is slaving at work. But people don't think about the other 29/30 days of non posted pictures and what goes behind it. It's human nature in a way, to take things at face value. Visual animals.
Most probably I just have too much time at my disposal. You know the saying says.... "An idle mind is the devil's workshop!".
I guess when you work, there is a sense of purpose, a sense of an aim- even if you hate work, you wake up, go to work, try to survive the day of work with minimal scoldings and end the day with dinner, chilling at home or out with friends.
It feels rather surreal, my being here. After slaving for 3 years and 9 months in the audit world and then 4 months plus in Corporate Finance, it is so different NOT working at all. I do miss earning my own income and having my own money to spend and yet, I would not do things any differently- that is, leaving the audit world behind.
Truth be told, I have been feeling a tad blue this past week but that doesn't have to mean that I am suffering quarter life crisis. And even if I really were, I will rise above and pull myself out of it! =)
Things to note:
This site really makes me feel as if I am being described. Well, most of it.
And read this site for 5 strategies to overcome your quarter life crisis.
Quarter life crisis is replacing mid life crisis and most 20 something and 30 something year olds have it even without really knowing.
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Just the other day, I plurked that I was going through quarter life crisis. And you know what?? I realised that I didn't know what it exactly meant. Hence, I do what I always do when I am not sure of something, I googled "quarter life crisis".
And this is what Wikipedia gave me...
Characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:
* realizing that the pursuits of one's peers are useless
* confronting their own mortality
* watching time slowly take its toll on their parents, only to realize they are next
* insecurity regarding the fact that their actions are meaningless
* insecurity concerning ability to love themselves, let alone another person
* insecurity regarding present accomplishments
* re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships
* lack of friendships or romantic relationships, sexual frustration, and involuntary celibacy
* disappointment with one's job
* nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life
* tendency to hold stronger opinions
* boredom with social interactions
* loss of closeness to high school and college friends
* financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.)
* loneliness, depression and suicidal tendencies
* desire to have children
* a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you
* frustration with social skills
And after evaluating the above... Shoots!!! I suffer from the above characteristics! All 100% of the above!! But upon further reflection, I think most people would probably be going through at least 60-80% of the above and does that make them all suffer from quarter life crisis??!! How dysfunctional we are these days then.
Friends and family see my uploaded pictures in FB of my days in Brissie and naturally assume that I am having a ball of my life over here. I guess I can't blame them for having such assumption. I do look "happier" and am going places or so it seems.
I post 100 over pictures of one day in my life and it looks like fun while everyone else is slaving at work. But people don't think about the other 29/30 days of non posted pictures and what goes behind it. It's human nature in a way, to take things at face value. Visual animals.
Most probably I just have too much time at my disposal. You know the saying says.... "An idle mind is the devil's workshop!".
I guess when you work, there is a sense of purpose, a sense of an aim- even if you hate work, you wake up, go to work, try to survive the day of work with minimal scoldings and end the day with dinner, chilling at home or out with friends.
It feels rather surreal, my being here. After slaving for 3 years and 9 months in the audit world and then 4 months plus in Corporate Finance, it is so different NOT working at all. I do miss earning my own income and having my own money to spend and yet, I would not do things any differently- that is, leaving the audit world behind.
Truth be told, I have been feeling a tad blue this past week but that doesn't have to mean that I am suffering quarter life crisis. And even if I really were, I will rise above and pull myself out of it! =)
Things to note:
This site really makes me feel as if I am being described. Well, most of it.
And read this site for 5 strategies to overcome your quarter life crisis.
Quarter life crisis is replacing mid life crisis and most 20 something and 30 something year olds have it even without really knowing.
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